urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart your life is on fire, it burns deep within this heart of mine kathryn rose blackheart 2005-07-19T23:39:23Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:65199 2005-07-19T23:39:23Z 2005-07-19T23:39:23Z <p><span class='ljuser ljuser-name_' lj:user='' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://www.livejournal.com/userinfo.bml?user='><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://www.livejournal.com/userinfo.bml?user='><b></b></a></span></p> <p><span class='ljuser ljuser-name_roseblackheart' lj:user='roseblackheart' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://roseblackheart.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://roseblackheart.livejournal.com/'><b>roseblackheart</b></a></span> </p> <p>...add me now.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:63653 2005-05-16T18:56:02Z 2005-05-16T18:56:02Z now her paints are dry... <br />and I looked outside... <br />at the corner boys...<br />ayh, oh, where did you go? <br />i don't know. <br />i went to see your pictures...<br />i spread them across the floor... <br />so this is where they are shown... <br />now they're probably saying to you, <br />"if you keep it up you'll be born."<br />but you won't ever listen, <br />i'll bet... <br />burnt out, grass scorched by the sun. <br />the buildings remain. <br />We will beat them all to dust, <br />i'll bet... Pulled from a headless shell that blinked on and off, <br />"hotel." <br />now the nameless dwell. <br />they hold your key and turn your knob, <br />i'll bet... <br />will you say hello to my ma? <br />will you pay a visit to her? <br />she was an artist, just as you were. <br />i'd have introduced you to her. <br />she would take me out on Sundays.<br />we'd go laughing through the garbage. <br />she repaired legs like a doctor on the kitchen chairs we sat on. <br />she was unhappy, just as you were. <br />unhappy, just as you were. <br />unhappy, just as you were. <br />unhappy, just as you were... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:63228 2005-04-27T20:02:33Z 2005-04-27T20:02:33Z someone.<br />fucking.<br />hire.<br />me.<br />now.<br />i.<br />need.<br />a.<br />job.<br />i.<br />am.<br />hungry.<br />and.<br />broke. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:62739 2005-04-25T23:04:15Z 2005-04-25T23:04:48Z <center><a href="http://suicidegirls.com/join/YFFWFN/"><img src="http://suicidegirls.com/media/banners/uploaded/dd-sgban01.jpg" width="468" height="60" alt="SuicideGirls.com - Pin-Up Punk Rock and Goth Girls"></a></center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:61585 2005-03-06T18:26:45Z 2005-03-06T18:26:45Z <p><a href="http://www.blackheartclothing.com/"><img src="http://www.blackheartcouture.websitesnap.com/i//bhl.jpg"></a></p> <p><a href="http://www.blackheartclothing.com/">BlackheartClothing.com is back!</a></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:57126 2004-11-02T05:25:44Z 2004-11-02T05:25:44Z im moving this week.<br />and don't forget to tell me happy birthday on thursday. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:57072 2004-11-02T05:25:32Z 2004-11-02T05:25:32Z im moving this week.<br />and don't forget to tell me happy birthday on thursday. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:56745 2004-10-24T03:36:50Z 2004-10-24T03:36:50Z bored loney tired frustrated urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:56391 2004-09-11T00:18:49Z 2004-09-11T00:18:49Z <a href="http://cgi6.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewSellersOtherItems&userid=blackheartcouture&completed=0&sort=3&since=-1">http://cgi6.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewSellersOtherItems&userid=blackheartcouture&completed=0&sort=3&since=-1</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:56191 2004-09-01T21:04:46Z 2004-09-01T21:04:46Z my sewing machine hates me. it really does. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:55617 2004-08-02T02:31:52Z 2004-08-02T02:31:52Z someone find me a job please.<br />help. help. help. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:54582 2004-06-05T05:13:20Z 2004-06-05T05:13:20Z buy me this:<br /><br /><a href="http://www.fabulousfit.com/papermachemisses.html">http://www.fabulousfit.com/papermachemisses.html</a><br /><br />thank you, size 6 please.<br /><br />im getting a bit sleepy.<br />courtney and i are playing the question game.<br />trinis birthday is on the 13th. im making her a purse. and buying her a dvd. and and and. some other things maybe. she was not at work last weekend and i nearly died.<br />fred bought me blush because he said i needed to lighten up.<br />i want new mary-janes and ballet shoes. the ones i made are not working out. and its the third pair ive attempted to make. <br />my nose is runny and my eyes burn.<br />vanessa and i went shopping yesterday and i got BIG black sunglasses and two patterns, interfacing, and a bit of black satin.<br />i ate four pieces of pizza and two bread sticks, and yes, im going to die.<br />finals this week. math and fashion on tuesday. english on thursday. jordan and i are going to see saved next weekend. courtney gets here next monday. ooolala.<br />i think alexs child is going to be eloise.<br /><br />oh. its date time.<br /><br />to be continued.<br /><br />and good night. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:54513 2004-05-31T02:32:05Z 2004-05-31T02:32:05Z kathrynrose@courtneyriot.com<br /><br />blackheart@courtneyriot.com<br /><br />oh...and those will be changing again eventually...probably in a few months. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:53906 2004-05-28T02:36:08Z 2004-05-28T02:36:08Z hi.<br />im bored to death and i dont want to do homework.<br />entertain me please.<br />aim. dearloverx urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:53469 2004-05-12T22:09:08Z 2004-05-12T22:09:08Z our interview is in AMP this month urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:52986 2004-05-11T02:19:04Z 2004-05-11T02:19:04Z It was requested I put this in my journal...<br />1. Who are you?<br />2. Are we friends?<br />3. When and how did we meet?<br />4. How have I affected you?<br />5. What do you think of me?<br />6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?<br />7. How long do you think we will be friends?<br />8. Do you love me?<br />9. Do you have a crush on me?<br />10. Would you kiss me?<br />11. Would you hug me?<br />12. Physically, what stands out?<br />13. Emotionally, what stands out?<br />14. Do you wish I was cooler?<br />15. On a scale of 1-10, how fucking amazing am I?<br />16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.<br />17. Am I lovable?<br />18. How long have you known me?<br />19. Describe me in one word.<br />20. What was your first impression?<br />21. Do you still think that way about me now?<br />22. What do you think my weakness is?<br />23. Do you think I'll get married?<br />24. What makes me happy?<br />25. What makes me sad? <br />26. What reminds you of me?<br />27. If you could give me anything what would it be?<br />28. How well do you know me?<br />29. When's the last time you saw me?<br />30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't (if so. do it.)?<br />31. Do you think I could kill someone? who?<br />32. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:52251 2004-05-01T02:49:26Z 2004-05-01T02:49:26Z hi...<br />i forget to write. but i always read.<br />work. work. work. homework. school. homework. school.<br />some people make me angry.<br />ive got a date tonight.<br />tomorrow jordo and i are going to amoeba and borders. i shouldnst spend money, but i will.<br />courtney, love. courtney love.<br />live hole is so pretty.<br />i made some pins today.<br />i need fabric. i need...a sweat shop.<br />im ready to be done with college.<br />its so much better than high school though.<br />43 days! arent you excited?<br />no more sleeping alone.<br />sometimes courtney yells at me in her sleep. i get scurred.<br />tomorrow is a lazy work day. im not going to talk.<br />oh my. oh my. oh my.<br /><br />tell me everything....<br />123 go. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:52082 2004-04-09T04:28:15Z 2004-04-09T04:28:15Z im so homophobic. oh god. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:51759 2004-04-08T23:53:10Z 2004-04-08T23:53:10Z yaddayaddayadda.<br />i actuallly did my statistics homework today. its not due until next thursday. whoa.<br />but i still need to do a reading response for eng 101. edit my eduction paper. and do my fashion adoption paper for fashion merch. concepts...due next thursday. i neeed to get all of this out of the way so i can have lots of free time while courtneys here. i KNOW i wont do any work while shes here...cause ill have better things to do.<br />today i had to take thee little brother to school. i guess the seniors were going on kairos. im sooo glad i left mission before i had to go on those terrible overnight retreats. hah. courtney called me on my way to school. i got there early. sat. studied. went to class. after class i realized i had locked my keys in my car. SHITTY. i had to walk alll the way back through the parking structure to the police potrol center place. fill out some paper. then went back to my car. and waiting for someone to come open up. wasted 20 minutes of my time. im forgetful sometimes. oops. came home. watched tv. made a grilled cheese. did homework. courtney callled me on her way home. thenn i went back to school. i actually found good parking. had a substitute for english. my teachers parents died and he had to go make arrangements. did peer editing. almost killed myself because i had never read a more terrible paper in my life. i couldnt even understand it. all of the grammar was incorrect. it made no sense. i was ready to cry. it was like torture. oh my.<br />tomorrow saturday and sunday. work 8-4. im gonna be rich. but not really. i need to save to move out.<br />whoaa. cold feelings is on the radio. i have thee best social distortion tape in my car. i cant wait to see them live againn. ooolala. i havent seen them since november at avalon. that was the 8th time. hah.<br />im eating so much chocolate. im going to be sick.<br />im going with jordan to see the adolescents on saturday at the hob anaheim. he is going to drive. cause he has a fancy new car. we went to amoeba on tuesday. he gave me two different copies of the hunger single and courtney love mono single on cd and pink vinyl. fancy.<br />i need to finish my coat. need to get tuelle. need to find black stretch denim. need to stop spending money. need to make orders and send them out on MONDAY. so much to do before courtney gets here.<br />i met doug on sunday night. alex should marry him and let him raise her kid. but she wont. shes a moron at times. dirty is an asshole.<br />i need to start sewing new stuff for the site. im slow and lazy. oh well.<br />i owe kelly deathless a letter. im slow and lazy. ill do it soon.<br />i fucked up another silk screen. shite. i need to clean it off with bleach again. what am i doing wrong? i should just go buy that stupid light and new emulsion.<br />byebye. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:51502 2004-04-04T04:00:15Z 2004-04-04T04:00:15Z courtney turns 18 on april 16.<br />buy her presents. cause you love her. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:51100 2004-03-18T05:18:54Z 2004-03-18T05:18:54Z my feet are asleep, and im so tired.<br /><br />my last final is tomorrow. then no more philosophy. and a week off. im going to sleeep. if i ever again have a schedule where i need to go to school everyday, ill kill myself. <br /><br />its time to wake my dear heart up.<br /><br /><br />tell me something.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:50866 2004-03-13T05:57:53Z 2004-03-13T05:57:53Z HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.<br />worse night of my life...<br />but you can only laugh in the end, right? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:50508 2004-03-03T07:00:23Z 2004-03-03T07:00:23Z im sleepy.<br />its past my bedtime.<br />for some reason...i did all my homework tonight. except for my resume assignment. ill start it tomorrow.<br />im sleepy.<br />i get paid on saturday. but i owe everyone money.<br />peggys vacation is next week. im going to try to work half day monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday. and then all day saturday and sunday, of course. thats an extra $90. and i start working on fridays april 2. <br />i need to save money. yaddayadda. i will be 18 in 8 months. im moving out.<br /><br />every morning at around 2:55 or so, i am woken by a phone call and a girl whispering the words 'i love you.' <br /><br />good night dear hearts.<br /><br />im sorry for my fuck ups. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:50203 2004-02-27T02:36:04Z 2004-02-27T02:36:04Z ooolala.<br />im eating sweethearts.<br />listening to f-minus.<br />the moose attacked me today. oh my.<br />i think i need to cut my hair.<br />i have rhinestone hair clips.<br />i get a new cell phone next month. arent you excited?<br />im so broke.<br />i started to clean my room.<br />whoa. math quiz tomorrow. i need to study like whoa.<br />im listening to the best mix cd ever.<br />i need to burn cds for my brother.<br />i need chocolate. now. now. now.<br />i need to move out.<br />ten months.<br />courtney moves in soon.<br />three and a half months. oh my.<br />ive got so many roses.<br />i need to study. catch up with math homework. by tomorrow morning.<br />fix my a&l paper. take some notes. by monday.<br />type philosophy notes and do cogency essay by thursday.<br />resume by next monday. lameness.<br />two more weeks of classes. one week of finals. then a week off.<br />then spring quarter. im taking. intro to fashion merch. english 101. math 100. yaddayadda. tuesdays and thursdays. i have a two hour break. from 9-11. or something like that. i was going to take history. but. im lazy. oh well. ill take four classes over summer. maybe. i hate driving there everyday. two days a week, i can handle.<br />my mother is stealing my car. yaddayadda.<br />next week i need to SEW.<br />were taking a train to new york. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:filthyheart:50123 2004-02-26T05:15:05Z 2004-02-26T05:15:05Z stress.<br /><br />no money. so many things to mail. borrowing money from my littl brother and rolling pennys.<br />expensive plane tickets that wont give me enough time.<br />no fucking packaging tape.<br />no one helps. but expects me to do things for them.<br />itchy sweater.<br />fancy new x shirt.<br />the cat eating something on my bed.<br />mothers acting like children and throwing tantrums for no reason.<br />seeing someone cry for the first time.<br />not being able to care for the person you live for. when they are hurting.<br />no sunlight. no quartz light.<br />so much rain.<br />two weeks behind in math class. a week behind in al100.<br />math quiz friday. studying tomorrow. tons of homework.<br />two more weeks to get through.<br />next quarter will be more stressful<br />two days. four classes both days. math. history. english. art.<br />headache.<br />cold.<br />jeans falling apart.<br />empty diet coke cans.<br />rhinestone hair clips.<br />dried red roses. now burgundy.<br />skeleton figurings with blue hair from olvera street.<br />waiting for money orders.<br />no paycheck to look forward to.<br />dreading asking fred if i can work two days during the week.<br />saving money to move out.<br />saying goodbye at airports too many times in one year.<br />crying on the way home while driving through the rain on the freeway.<br />breaking promises everyday. but it doesnt even matter anymore. because they dont matter anymore. i owe them nothing.<br />dior adict.<br />dried up glue sticks.<br />paper mache dress forms.<br />not being able to afford a real vintage dress form.<br />ruining screen printers.<br />listening to the same cd continously.<br />forgetting to take your phone off silent and waking up knowing something is not right. and realzing you missed the most important call.<br />falling asleep over the phone.<br />waking up to a phone call.<br />crying over the phone.<br />holey socks.<br />the death of your sister.<br />empty piggy banks.<br />messy bedrooms<br />lost minds.<br />doomed thoughts.<br />wanting more.<br />not photogenic.<br />fishnets.<br />quit smoking.<br />time going by too slowly.<br />too many days.<br />47 days.<br />too cold to be sitting here.<br />im going to bed.<br />washing my hair in the morning.<br />i lost the moose.<br />i got married.